Saturday, January 21, 2012

Quitter's Log 1/21/12


Have I addressed the phenomenon of coffee and cigarettes? I’m sure (almost) everyone who quits the cancer sticks has to face this at some point on their smoke free journey. I thought I would reach that fork in the road much sooner.  I drink coffee to the point where I can no longer hide behind the fancy “antioxidants”. It's just straight bad for me, the amount I drink. But my intake has increased since I stopped smoking. I wasn’t surprised: it provides a chemical stimulus and an oral preoccupation.  Plus, when I was still smoking, I found that I didn’t’ actually love the sensation of the two together. Coffee and cigarettes left my mouth feeling like an ash tray that someone poured day-old coffee into.

But I sit here today, sipping my café au lait and thinking to myself, “Mmmm…cigarettes.” Ok, I know it is unlikely that I’ll start smoking today. But regardless, good thing I don’t have a pack on me, right?

Ha! Wrong. It doesn’t matter because there is a gas station across the street from this (super cool, it’s totally my favorite in Minneapolis) coffee shop.  50 feet away I can buy cigarettes to enjoy with my coffee. It might actually be less/more than 50 feet, I’ve always been a horrible judge of distance. 

But have no fear; I don’t intend to march over there and purchase the most addictive substance on the planet….

Or do I…?

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